hi.

I've been hibernating for about a year...I'm sorry. After nestling underneath my books, essays, and exams for so long, I don't know how to react now that I have the time to sleep, stretch, and think. I'm allowed to breathe, but I've gotten used to this thick plastic bag over my head that's been suffocating me for the past ten months...and I'm still figuring out how to take it off. Unfamiliarity intimidates me, so I panic and stick with routine. Strangely enough, change is enveloping everything I'm accustomed to, and if there's any time in my life that I've needed to come to terms with this, it certainly is right now. I've been so focused on how slowly my grass is turning from yellow to green that I haven't even thought of pulling my head out of this hole to listen to how pretty something like the wind can sound. I've waited far too long for a life altering earthquake to shake my foundations, and it's just now come to my attention that my demanding desires are entirely disrespectful. I'm ready to kneel at the feet of my Adonai and listen to His whisper. But I'm still learning. I'm still a baby. I'm oh so nascent.