I hate this feeling of just sitting around,
watching everything around me become so decrepit,
knowing there's nothing i can do about it.
Sometimes I just wish God would use me,
since i finally feel like i'm capable of being able to help someone...
But God knows what he's doing.
I guess I just suck at trusting that.
It's just hard to watch my friends go through trial after trial,
knowing that God has something good to come of it,
and that he's the only one who can do anything about it.
I wish 'captain S.' would just realize that i understand.
Being patient for the brighter sides of things is agonizing,
and I hate it just as much as you do.
Especially when it involves your family, and it's something you can't avoid.
Sure, our families may not be the same,
and we may not go through the same types of fights, but believe me, i know!
You're family is basically my family, and to see you go through the things you do,
I'm sorry. It'll be over soon. Just hold on.
I know what it's like to be told "You have no respect,"
when you feel like you get nothing but disrespect thrown at you day to day.
And to feel like your family, the ones who are meant to be there and love you,
toss around your feelings like they're nothing.
As much as you like to go on believing that you're all alone, you're not.
God gave us our specific parents for a reason, and I'm sorry that may sound harsh.
But in a sense, it's comforting to know that it won't always be this way,
and the scars that you're left with in the end will only make you stronger.
I know you'll probably never read any of this, but I think it's better off that way.
I mean, whenever i try to comfort you otherwise,
it appears to mean nothing to you, but that's okay.
At least I tried.
So, "Captain S.", If I could transform you're world into one big Utopia,
I probably would. But then again,
We would all be spoiled little pansies if we didn't come face to face with hell every now and then.
So hold on, i can't fix you, but God can, and He will.
I love you.
watching everything around me become so decrepit,
knowing there's nothing i can do about it.
Sometimes I just wish God would use me,
since i finally feel like i'm capable of being able to help someone...
But God knows what he's doing.
I guess I just suck at trusting that.
It's just hard to watch my friends go through trial after trial,
knowing that God has something good to come of it,
and that he's the only one who can do anything about it.
I wish 'captain S.' would just realize that i understand.
Being patient for the brighter sides of things is agonizing,
and I hate it just as much as you do.
Especially when it involves your family, and it's something you can't avoid.
Sure, our families may not be the same,
and we may not go through the same types of fights, but believe me, i know!
You're family is basically my family, and to see you go through the things you do,
I'm sorry. It'll be over soon. Just hold on.
I know what it's like to be told "You have no respect,"
when you feel like you get nothing but disrespect thrown at you day to day.
And to feel like your family, the ones who are meant to be there and love you,
toss around your feelings like they're nothing.
As much as you like to go on believing that you're all alone, you're not.
God gave us our specific parents for a reason, and I'm sorry that may sound harsh.
But in a sense, it's comforting to know that it won't always be this way,
and the scars that you're left with in the end will only make you stronger.
I know you'll probably never read any of this, but I think it's better off that way.
I mean, whenever i try to comfort you otherwise,
it appears to mean nothing to you, but that's okay.
At least I tried.
So, "Captain S.", If I could transform you're world into one big Utopia,
I probably would. But then again,
We would all be spoiled little pansies if we didn't come face to face with hell every now and then.
So hold on, i can't fix you, but God can, and He will.
I love you.
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